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Nov. 20th, 2010 04:06 am
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It's 4 am and I'm sitting in Matts room carefully observing the shadows and highlights that make up objects shapes.

Thinking about things that have happened, that I haven't had control over, that make me want to cry.

My worst fear, after all these years, is still being alone.

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I find your lack of beer disturbing.
-me

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I find your lack of beer disturbing.
-me

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Aarrgh

Aug. 18th, 2010 04:36 am
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I can't sleep and I have to get up in 2 hours to go in to my work cause I don't have Internet at home right now. Yes I'm having Internet withdraw. I need to go for a walk or something and work out this nervous uncomfortable feeling.

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Widmore is an alien! Who didn't see that coming...

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At one point, people who gave up everything where considered seekers of enlightenment. Now we only regard them as homeless people who are worth nothing because they are not slaves to our society and rules. Why did we ever let this happen?

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At one point, people who gave up everything where considered seekers of enlightenment. Now we only regard them as homeless people who are worth nothing because they are not slaves to our society and rules. Why did we ever let this happen?

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*whimper*

Jul. 14th, 2010 04:27 am
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It's 4 AM and I'm up watching x-files and crying. I mean almost sobbing crying. These episodes are the saddest thing I've seen in a while. Mulder and Scully love each other so much. Also, it's impossible not to start crying when Mulder puts his crying face on.

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*whimper*

Jul. 14th, 2010 04:27 am
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It's 4 AM and I'm up watching x-files and crying. I mean almost sobbing crying. These episodes are the saddest thing I've seen in a while. Mulder and Scully love each other so much. Also, it's impossible not to start crying when Mulder puts his crying face on.

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It's about 4 in the morning and I'm laying in bed. I've been here for 3 hours, trying to fall asleep, but I can't. The noise of the mini fridge in my room is driving me insane when at any other time I don't even notice it. I won't put earbuds in to listen to music and drown it out because I am paranoid about not being able to hear in the event someone should come into my room while I'm sleeping. Like I can somehow defend myself if I have the few extra seconds that hearing an intruder would give me. My mind won't shut up. I don't even know what it is going on about that is so important that it must deny me my sleep. It's just rushing from thought to thought all the while focusing on every squeak, hum, creak, etc, that is being made by this old house and the things in it.

I watched a movie today on netflix that was based on a fictional future where you can be implanted with a timer that counts down to the exact moment you find your one true love, if they also have one of these devices. It was labeled as a comedy. There was NOTHING remotely funny about it. It was actually a really depressing movie. Maybe it was supposed to be comedic how tragic humans are in their search to find someone to love them forever. I don't know...

Was sick since Sunday, but feeling better now thank god. I had chills and a cough and a horrible headache that started at the top of my spine and made my whole head pound.

Sometimes I don't know if the things I hear are real, in my head, or if I'm hearing someones thoughts somehow.

I wish it would rain.

Maybe not being able to fall asleep is my body's way of telling me I sleep too much normally. But I was sick the past few days, so it should cut me some slack. I needed extra sleep.

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Getting ready to go to pride. Wooo!

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Went to a friends house for a LAN party. This consisted of the 4 of us drinking until 3 am and trying to run a wow instance. The issue was that none of us knew how to run through mauradon. Now I'm the first one up with nothing to do. At least I'm not hungover, instead I'd say I'm sore from sleeping on Lily's miniature couch. So tiny and constricting. Other then that everything is good I guess. I can't wait to get my computer chair so I can stop hunching over my keyboard on my bed.

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